I have been searching for ways to improve my attractiveness to girls in general, and specifically my own girlfriend ever since we fought until almost break up the last fight. Since then I know i have not been working on myself for some while, either physically or mentally. Due to heavy workload and part time studies, i lost interest in reading self-help books and doing exercises, which I think is bad for myself no matter in short term or long term. I recalled that i slowly giving up those good habits because i need to accompany my girlfriend, sound like an excuse though, but I really try to make time for our relationship, even with the expense of taking a toll on my self maintainance and improvement journey.
It's sweet to stick with her, and enjoy our time together. Watching the same drama, make our own dessert and sell to her customer, date with her at night in Kaki-Yuki dessert shop, having dinner together with her in Queensbay and converse deeply in the lower ground bench. It was wonderful, when we have the leisure time to date. We both felt otherwise when we are rushing in times. Maybe we are just not compatible in terms of career, job type, work shift, social class. I am a 9-5 work shift white collar, she is a daughter of a business owner who work night shift. Timing separate us to be together and make ourselves available for each other, social class separate our world views. We live in a different social circle. She was surrounded by FnB business social circle, while I am surrounded by IT proffesionals. Leave the distinctive current scenario aside, we do shared a common wish to stay together, and we both wanted to startup our own business. We both have the drive to improve better. We both wanted to withhold our relationship, to make it blossom and thrive despite the adversity of reality. Do our commonalities sufficient to bring us forward to another stage of love ？ It will definitely not going to be as easy as other relationships. We are not even sure of whether we are meant for each other, we are not as happy around each other. She feel judge by me, because we are different. I feel like she is not that into me, giving me less confident to pursue more. Both of us are insecure whether we will work this out. This is different from LDR, or solely social class different, this is a mix of all issue. We are both stubborn, we will not let go easily, which for me shows good quality of loyalty and perseverance. We both need to be sure of the value of each other possess, we need to have confidence and trust on each other. If we fit into each other ideal type, pretty sure other obstacles will be resolved.
What quality i am searching for for my life partner?
I see my partner beyond looks or any physical appearance. Although good sense of style is a bonus point.
I am impressed with:
Inner beauty: Honestly, authenticity, respectful, driven in life, emphaty.
Intimacy: willingness to spend time together, get my jokes.
I wanted to be confidence to live by myself, and provide happiness to her.
1.) To know my own value, no insecurity.
2.) Work on my own tempered and emotional management
3.) To work on my hesitation or fumbleness when speaking
4.) Make massive decision by my own.
5.) Be active, stop being passive.
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